Tuesday, May 5, 2020

My biggest sin my testimony

My Biggest Sin My Testimony
A lot of sins are stemmed from a bigger sin that we may not even know we have until Jesus reveals it to us.  I didn’t know what my biggest sin was until Jesus revealed it to me.  My biggest sin was not lust or any of the common sins that you think of when you think of bad sins, but my sin was a lack of faith and a lack of trust that JESUS would supply ALL my needs, including a WIFE.  Because I had a lack of faith and because I did not trust God it led me to just want to be the ruler or my own life because I could do it on my own.  I could find my own wife.  I could find my own job.  I could make my own house, I could make my own career.   And it led me into a very ungodly time in my life to where I didn’t hear from God, I was not pleasing Him, I had my own little ministry in church, I had my own ungodly relationships and because I didn’t trust that Jesus would actually have the best for me, I pushed Him out of my life to do my OWN thing.  When the Lord finally broke me to use me for His purpose He showed me that this was my biggest sin, it was stemming from this lack of faith or lack of trust, whatever you want to call it.  But I want to read to you what it says in James, this is James 1:5-6 “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask of God, who gives to all liberally and without reproach, and it will be given to him.  But let him ask in FAITH, with no doubting, for he who doubts is like a wave of the sea driven and tossed by the wind.”  So have you ever wondered what James is talking about when he talks about whoever is doubting is like the one tossed to and fro?  What he is talking about is someone exactly like me, who did pray, who was a Christian, who did have some kind of faith or understanding of God, but who was also extremal double minded because when I would pray I wouldn’t trust God, I wouldn’t have real faith.  I would just doubt Him all over.  This truly does lead to many MANY sins.  You can talk about how money is the root of all kinds of evil, but doubting is the root of MORE evil than money!  Make sure that you are not doubting God as I was.  Repent of doubting, repent of putting faith in the flesh.  Trust the Lord Jesus and He will supply ALL your needs.  But if you doubt Him, if you don’t think He will actually set you free from sin, then you will be preaching the fake message, that everyone still keeps sinning.  If you doubt Him, then you won’t wait for God to supply you with a wife, you will run out and get into a BAD relationship.  If you doubt Him then you will go into debt, buying on credit cards… if you doubt Him, undoubtably you will get the mark of the beast because you will put your faith in men and the government system, you won’t trust that Jesus will supply your needs.  Doubt will be the END OF YOU.  Do you trust Jesus?  Or is your faith in other things, in yourself, in the FLESH?  Self-evaluate and make sure that you are actually with Jesus, otherwise you are headed toward absolute destruction.